Days Passing

After a very long time.. I'm happy again..

The Big Bang Theory

Intelligence will always lead people to have conversations that are seemingly illogical. Haha.

After a fulfilling dinner at a not so popular spot near Lasalle and after lighting our cigarette, my best friend and I had this conversation regarding her newly developed theory about love. I have to say that this is the craziest one so far. According to her all of us (yes.. including me) will meet that one person that we will truly love. We will spend a lot of time with that person, We'll do almost everything for that person but at the end all efforts will be in vain because we will not end up with that same individual. As time passes we'll meet other people, pretend that it's real love that we feel for them, love like how we see it in movies. But the reality is that all people that will come into our lives, they're all going to be the convenience. My friend was so decided on her theory that she even coined differet terms. Anyway, it was very confusing at first but as she explained it, I learned that according to her so called theory people will always meet their true love but they will always end up with their convenience, a person that you'll love because he/she was the one present at the moment of need or the person that you'll choose to settle with because the person of real interest is never going to be available. Our conversation made me think a lot. Could it be possible? Could my best friend be right? Am I going to marry someone out of convenience?

I told you it was crazy. So much for happy endings.

But either way, I told my best friend that she should just sit and watch because I'm going to prove to her that she's all wrong. Me and my big mouth again.

L: Nand'yan na nga yung convenience store. Bakit hahanap ka pa ng iba? Bakit pupunta ka pa sa mall?

Tara: Kasi mas maraming stores dun. Mas maraming options. Tsaka pano kung may mas malapit pa pala?

L: Paano kung di yun 24 hours? tsaka pano kung kailangan mo na talaga? Kailangan mo na at that moment.

Tara: Ibang analogy na lang. Hindi ako mananalo sa example na to.

just a sip of vodka..

I'm furious! I'm so pissed off I could kill someone. Haha.

still.. I contain myself. I am well aware that when I'm angry I tend to do things that I later regret.

I hate being poor. I really do. When someone asks me to go somewhere, If I'm available and I can do it then I'm there.. But ..This is really important for me..As much as possible I want to spend my own money or If I really don't have cash I would choose to borrow from a friend then pay it back as soon as I can. Some people would enjoy it when other people would pay for what they eat or drink , but it's different fo me. I have nothing against those kind of people but I really just don't like the feeling of owing someone anything. It's difficult when people would make you feel less of a person just because they have money to spend at the moment and you don't. My thoughts are pouring out but they don't seem to make any sense.

Astrological Forecast

June 17

Just when you feel as if you have come to a point of stability and calm in your emotions, something comes along to jar you and throw you off balance, dear Libra. You may find that you are uneasy with the notion of stability and that what you really yearn for is risk, action, and excitement. This inner conflict is making it hard for you to operate. Try not to overanalyze every piece of the equation. The solution will come to you naturally.

I hope the solution will not take a very long time to come. I hope it comes tomorrow..after a few hours.. a few minutes..seconds..now!

Runaway Gal

Yesterday while I was doing my ususal chores, I got a call from Jaynie. She told me that Mir is already here in Philippines and that he was looking for me. Mir is a korean guy that I met in skype, I was planning to hook him up with Jaynie so I gave him her number. Anyway, I told Jaynie not to give any information about me because I had no plans of meeting him. As soon as I got off the phone, my mom asked me what the call was all about. I never keep secrets from my mom so I told her everything.. while I was giving her a foot spa. Yesss.. a foot spa.. with a pedicure. I insisted on it because I think she needed it badly..meeeennn..You would totally agree with me if you saw her foot..It would be a perfect place to plant flowers. Anyway, I really have to stick to the topic. After my long story about how I met Mir..she started nagging about how I let chances pass me by. She said I should meet up with him. Whatever happened to mothers who are proud of daughters who choose to stay home than go out on a date?! We had a long argument until I finally gave in.. I gave out a nervous laugh and just said "I don't know how to defend myself anymore." I also told her that if she doesn't stop talking about it, her nails will be all red..and thats not because of the nail polish. Before she went to sleep for her usual afternoon siesta, she said "I'm gonna count the times that you let good chances pass."

I'm not scared like what my mom is trying to say. I just don't like Koreans (my mom said I'm gonna end up with one), I'm just trying to choose. I'm just trying to get ready. I'm just waiting for the perfect time. I still believe in destiny.. You know.. and.. and.. Maybe I should buy my mom a cute lil notebook so that she can keep track of the so called chances that she keeps on talking about.

CHANCE=1

TARA=0

My Role Model

I could really use a stick of marlboro lights right now. After a long time, I thought my next blog would be about something exciting or something worthwhile that happened in my life. But alas.. everything is the same. Well, maybe not entirely but theres nothing that I should be thrilled about except for the weekend that I'm really looking forward to.

This weekend, I'm planning to sleep. Yesssss.. sleep without worrying about whether I'm gonna be late for work or not. I want to sleep..wake up..then sleep again. Theres nothing amazing about the world today. Faces are the same. News are all not worth hearing, except for the one about the news reporter who got lost in some wild forest and was found sitting on top of a tree talking to a monkey. Hahaha.. a bit of exaggeration can help make a simple blog really interesting. Actually a lot happened lately, but it all sums up to one thing.. I WANT CHANGE!


It's Fiesta on Sunday so I'm definitely going to eat a lot.

Kare-Kare, Lumpia, Pancit, Baked Tahong, etc.

hhmmmmm..

Life is boring..

But it's still good.

S.O.S

It’s 5:00 A.M. and I’m still wide awake..Heeeeeeeelllllpppp!

Just a few minutes ago, I was asked to leave a comment in a blog spot by my officemate. I figured what the heck.. She already forced me to sign up for an account just to get a comment, might as well do it again just to get it over with. As I read her comment which was about shopping (A word which I’m starting to hate nowadays), I can’t help but wonder. What is it with blogging? Why are a lot of people so into it? Is it a way to enhance a person’s ability to express his/her thoughts? A way to show how articulate or poetic a person is? Is it a stress reliever? Or just another way to escape a life that is not so interesting.. painful in some way.. busy.. lonely.. in short.. reality?

This is definitely one of those days when I feel like my entire life is a mess. Well maybe not entirely but close to it. Staying at home is not a good idea, the crowd I’m in is also not helping, the work is.. well so damn unsatisfying and the good news is.. it’s just Thursday today so that means I have to face the whole pack again later. I mean, I can’t complain about my family, my friends or the work that provides me with the money I need for my latte, but having the feeling of not looking forward to anything good or new..that I have a lot to say about. They say that you can’t choose who or what you’re going to deal with in life..but you can always choose HOW to deal with them. So, how do I deal with another.. I guess long and not so exciting day?! It’s like this..When my student asks me..How are you teacher? I think the answer would be..I’M DOING GREAT!..and believe it or not I’ll say that with a loud and cheerful voice..all smiles. It’s difficult sometimes but I’ve become an expert. Sometimes, I think I should include that in my list of talents.

Who would want to read a blog containing ideas that are not so inspiring..well..actually on second thought..the person who might read this would probably be inspired in some way..he’ll probably think..I’m so lucky..I’m spending time with my family right now..and I’m going to hang out with my pals later..I have an excellent job with a good salary..and he's going to say..I’m doing GREAT! And this time he actually means it.

Blogging..wtf?! but what the hell..give me a break ..I have time to waste..work is not until 3:00 PM.. :)